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Friday, March 27, 2009

Friends are Few ... & So am i

8:33 AM

Time has come to know who is truely there for me
Family - Definately
God - No doubt , and i know you are there
Friends - ???

Everytime you guys seek me for solutions
Now i'm set & done in dealing all of your Stuff

Standing lonesome i may be
One thing for sure , I'll not fall down as you want me to be
Strong & Steady I'll stand
For God is True and always there to defend

People i've know are countless , but True friends are only a few
Darkest & hostile infront of me
Yet i believe God is here with me
Tough times is here but not for long
But my Faith for you is forever long

So here i am
In the toughest situation
I ask myself this question
What is the answer to all this equations

Uncertainty rise upon my head
Yet i choose not to bow to dead
Problems are like a cycle
But is a time for Him to make a miracle

Lord i pray in your name
Relieve my family from all pressure
Rejoice in the Lord is what you assure

Time will fly and tell
For my story doesn't ends in hell
April 7 is coming near
All i seek is a recover
To see my dad succeed in his career

Simple prayer is all i ask
" Lord , Bless my family is all i speak"

AMEN

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Lord - I'm Too Young To Lose My Dad

4:48 PM

2.45am
Dad was screaming in pain
Mum Sleeping and she thought it was just another normal sight
Dad asked me Again to apply oilment for him to ease the pain
2.50am
Dad told me he could bare no more
The pain was unbearable
We took a cab down to chong pang 24hr clinic
Dad was still in pain
Opened the door and went in to see Doc
Doc did a examine on Dad , i'm not too sure what its for
Doc came back with results
He claimed : " It was a Heart attack , No dragging , head to hospital right away "
3.20am
Reached Tan Tock Seng
Did our registration
Patiently waiting for Dad's turn to be dianogsed
20mins and i'm still waiting for Dad to come out
4.00am
I pick up my balls and head straight to the nurse
Told her i could wait no more
Then a male doc came and told me " This is the early stage of Heart attack , it is comfirmed that he ( Dad ) is going to ICU "
" Your Dad will be ready in an Hour time "
5.00am
Went up to Ward6A / Bed 15
Still not ready for visit
Msg'd Elder bro about it
My mind was like a raging sea , I find no peace
6.00am
1st bro & mum reached
6.10am
Went into the ward
The scene was like a scientist was conducting a Experiment on my Dad , Wires & Cables was all over his upper body
Sobbing came next while my Mum hugs Dad
Speechless and heart broken
Now we see a man who raised a family of 6 by carrying Boxes of Kilogram for a living being burnt out
6.30am
Nurse came by and told us that Dad will be going through couple of Test later
Dad was still laughing away
7.00am
We decided to head home while 1st bro went for his wedding pic taking session
On the way back , heard alot of stuff about my Dad which i never knew at all
Now
No words can explain how i feel
Neither can i comprehend how i feel
Lord , Pls Be With Dad
He's no Christian at all but I'm asking you to Look at him now
He doesn't deserve such treatment
Friends betrayed him , Brothers turned against him , Boss picked on him
A man who just want his family to be happy and had to work his ass off under Extreme temperature & heat
He never commit adultery
In my mum's eye he was a man of his word
Luxury was never his friend
But he worked his ass off to prove worthy to befriend with $$$
Until today he has yet to receive comfirmation to be a friend with $$$$
Laying on the bed is what he is doing now
I pray in your name Jesus , Heal my dad
Goh Chan San deserves a better Life

* If any of you Son of B*tch Jack A$* knuckle Head Punk A$*
Jes** wannabe were to say that my Dad has no hope , I dare you say infront of me . Be garunteed that You won't breath nor see the next minute .

Sunday, March 8, 2009

My Last Fight , My Last Post

9:01 AM

Talking about disappointments , none can hurt me more than my friends...
Well i truely hope that my words can get into your mind , 5 years and i've been lied about everything... It's over... Prove to yourself and the world to be the Man that you always claimed to be...
With all that aside , now is back to me Again...
Of course i feel awful about it.
From the start , I knew it that i was going to be deemed as the bad guy while you can score some sympathy from the audience.
I never thought of how others feel? Well if you said so.
I'm not going back there anymore , I don't wana be Judged as a bad guy.
I wana be appreciated , No credits stolen .
For 5 years , so many had walked away from me. But any of them know how i feel?
Alone & Desperate.
I need to figure a away out. I wana quit this job. It is too painful and time consuming , I've could have acomplished more than what i am having right now.
Appreciate - Despite whether you are in church or not! How many of you have appreciated those who have helped you?
Now all of you might be thinking , " EH dont jiao wei la , speaks as if you are so Big n powerful , arent u just seeking for sympathy too?"
No problem , I ok with it . Until you step into my shoes , you will realise " Sometimes it's getting to Hell than to Heaven".
I've learned alot in CHC , Thank you For your knowledge.
For those who listened and see me through , Thank you.
I don't want to be deemed as a BAD ASS in church.
No more of it. 5 years too long.
From now , my doors are closed .
No more bible reading , Churchy-being .
I'll be alone out there , continue searching until one day someone truely accepts me for who i am.
Being MAD is no more in me . MAD : ( Making A Difference )
If you guys are smart enough , claimed that you are better , well prove it =)
I'm not being sarcastic , Just Do It . The one who wins will always be all of you out there , Work Hard for yourself . Be the person you want to be. Dont try to please everyone , Be Original .

Humble and willing to learn - This is the key to success ^^

Thats all I've gotta say.